Chance Came Yesterday But I Wasn’t Ready

It almost seem like a regular day, a day I set out as usual to get things done, to give more of myself, to improve and to have control of my own life.

Suddenly, I found myself doing something completely different , indulging in something I was fully conscious it really had nothing to do with the direction I set out to be on.

But hey! it felt nice, besides I was happy and isn’t happiness what one strives for , so I continued. But deep down I could hear myself reminding me that I was messing things up, but I was only going to be there for a few minutes longer and return back on the path path I had set out to walk that day, at least that was what I told myself, it was comforting and it felt like I had everything under control.

Meanwhile , Chance set out that day to pay me a visit like it does everyday, and on reaching me, found that I was doing completely doing something else and said to itself, “this isn’t what he needed me for, I’m going back, besides he already seems happy where he is now” and said I’ll be back tomorrow.

As time flew by, I checked the clock and asked myself where did all that time go, why does it always feel like there’s someone after time, it seems to always be moving fast, But this was a deep seated worry that I wasn’t going to get anything done,

More so, the energy was quite low and it didn’t seem like it was the right time to be making life changing decisions, so I decided to take a little break and recharge and begin strongly again.

Little did I know that chance was already gone and time didn’t seem to care.

The pressure started mounting and fear creeping in, So I said why not start afresh tomorrow with new energy ( A tomorrow that wasn’t guaranteed for me by any stretch of the imagination), So I left everything to chance. But chance and I had an agreement that it was only going to give me chance when I was working on the path I set out to walk.

Ands since I couldn’t see chance, I felt there was no way out, and that’s how I had trapped myself in a maze of my own making, I began to question everything and why things weren’t working out for me, with only fears and thoughts of loss of control, the world became my enemy, I became my own enemy.

I had lost it and it stayed this way for a very long time, and with each passing day worse that the previous day.

Then one day, through the grace of the Devine I found myself in deep introspection, wondering if truly this is how life would be for me, I tried to retrace my steps to find out how I found myself in chaos of my own making.

Like a revelation , I saw how it all happened , just one tiny decision away from the path I had set out to walk led me here. I saw how chance came by and found me unready and left. Then I knew it was coming back tomorrow if I set out to walk the path I was called to walk.

Just as how darkness flees in the presence of light, I was filled with peace, reassurance that chance is coming back as long as I was ready.

With this realisation came a new energy burst, feeling unstoppable and through will power I was able get out of the maze of chaos I had created for myself, with a reminder that lurking in the shadows was the siren call of old habits

Chance came yesterday but found me unready.